Day Four, five and Six

Work up late for my workout and decided not to go. texted my trainer and friend and she replied, it's your journey, not mine. Being the sensitive panda I am, I was upset about that and thought, what a bitch. Then I proceeded to get dressed and go for the last part of the class. I love her and I'm glad she did what she did. I would have not gone. I love you Jax

Breakfast: Oatmeal with berries.

Havin a bbq today so this should be interesting. Rented a jumper. FOR THE WRONG DAY!!!! I hope Joey jumpers comes to my rescue!!!

So they did and we had a great party.

I'm not gonna write about the past 3 days but I will tell you this. I have the most AMAZING family and friends. I've had so much fun at all the bbq's, birthday parties and pool parties. I have been going nonstop since friday. What a crazy fun weekend.

BTW.........i love tequila. come on guys, just one more shot. lol

Day Three

Breakfast: Coffee and the BEST breakfast EVER. Egg whites with spinach, tomato, 2 slices of Canadian bacon a sprinkle of low fat chee and 1 slice of honey wheat berry toast with a tiny bit of butter.

Snack: just a hand full of almonds, cashews and cranberries from traders.

Lunch: Green salad, grilled chix, low fat feta, balsamic and evoo.

Asked Viv what she wanted and she replied McDonalds. Got her a happy meal and resisted the french fries. Victory is mine.

Slaters came over for dinner. Mexican. I did fairly well and drank some corona lights. 2 carne asada soft tacos a little bit of rice and beans.

All in all a good day

I am thankful for my parents. My parents are alive and well and I love them so much.

day two

breakfast: same as yesterday :)

Snack: banana

lunch: greens and veggies with grilled chicken, balsamic with evoo and feta

Been drinking green tea, unsweetened, from trader and loving it. Water too.

Went to the dr. and became frustrated. Gained weight since the last time I was there, which was when I broke my toe, not that long ago. And riddle me this batman, Why the EFF do they have to weigh you EVERY TIME? I flippin swear. anyway, so I would normally say, well I'm fat anyway and drive thru some fast food joint, then feel bad about myself 10 min later. I did not today. I told myself this is why I am doing this. small victories. one day at a time.

Excited to try a new recipe tonight. from my new favorite magazine. Clean eating. Lots of tasty stuff to make. Wine tonight. YUMMO

Dinner was Delish. I had 2 glasses of wine. I wanted something sweet. I had a small bag of famos amos (6) cookies and a glass of ice cold fat free milk.

i love to play bejeweled blitz.

Today I am thankful that I don't have cancer. I have a mass on my leg and it's been there for months. I never thought anything of it but when I mentioned it to Cyn, Jax and Ian, they insisted I have it checked out. I went today and had an x ray. It's called lypoma. a fatty tumor. How funny is that? fatty tumor. lol.

till tmrw. J

Day one

I thought breakfast was going to be easy. This morning I'm fixing Steel cut oatmeal with berries. I take the girls to school and now I'm STARVING. go to make my oats, read the directions, IT TAKES 30 min. shoot me now. lol. So I make them, put in some blueberries, raspberries and cinnamon. Take a bite and BLECH. It's not cooked and DISGUSTING. Hennessey out. DA DA DAAAAA trader joes to the rescue. frozen steel cut oat meal, 3 min, blueberries, raspberries, cinnamon and just a tad bit of equal sweetener. DELISH.

Breakfast: trader joes steel cut oatmeal with berries. Coffee with equal, lowfat milk and cinnamon vanilla creamer. (I won't give it up)

Yesterday, I read that mini egg white frittatas were a great snack on the run. I combined egg whites, spinach, mushrooms, and a bit of garlic/herb feta chee. ( i love chee) put them in a mini muffin tin and baked at 350 for about 12 min. I have to say, DELISH.

off to exercise. booooooooo

So instead of leaving the computer and cleaning or making excuses why I can't go to they gym, I got up off my lazy booty and went. Swimming is my exercise of choice today. Swimming at the local 24 hr can be quite comical. So first off let me say that I am the only white person in the pool area and I bring the age curve down by about 30 years. I will also tell you I do not swim laps the whole time. I would die. I use the kick board most of the time but do swim some full blown laps. Its what I observe during my laps using the kick board that I find super funny. Like guys who have just worked out going into the sauna or the steam room. Why do they do that? Oh and they love to use their cell phones in there. Are you kidding me? Today a sweaty RIPPED african american guy went in the steam room and then sat on a bench by the pool. caught him staring at me and when i looked back it looked as if he wanted to kill me. He finally left, thank god. weirdo. Oh and then another swimmer, who was male touched my leg while he was swimming. gross. swam for 30 min. legs are jello.

snack: a banana and 4 mini egg white frittatas

Lunch: Grilled chicken, mushrooms, bell pepper, cucumber and feta tossed in balsamic and evoo salt and pepper.

2 bit o honeys, 1 sugar free red bull

snack: raw veggies.

So as dinner time approaches I must tell you, this is and will be the pitfall of the day. I cook. I associate drinking a glass of wine or 2 or having a few beers with cooking. I start cooking at 4pm. So heres where the "i'm gonna drink less" comes in. I have to change my mindset and drink less when I cook. I will drink beer tonight. I can guarantee that. I will, however, drink less than I did last night and the night before that. I like to drink. I don't need it. I like the taste of beer and wine and vodka and tequila. All in moderation.

Dinner: Halibut fish stick, 3, quinoa, roasted zucchini and asparagus, dill and caper tartar sauce and salad. Always a salad. minus the croutons. I love croutons.

Halibut was DELISH, quinoa ok, roasted zucchini YUMMO (thx jax) the best part? the dill caper tartar sauce. In the words of cyn, the best tartar sauce she has ever had. let me know if you want the recipe.

I am new at this blogging thing so this post might be too long. YIKES. I'm going to blog every day for 30 days and see how it goes. I'm sure they will get shorter as the days go on. I will always leave you with 2 things. a random thought or question and one thing I am thankful for.

Why is soap slippery?

I am thankful for my husband. We have been married for 11 years and together for almost 19. When we were young he used to tell me that if I ever got fat he would leave me. (give him a break, he was YOUNG). So after 2 kids and me getting fat he is still with me and never tells me I'm fat. :)

Till tomorrow. J

Is this thing on?

So here I am. A blogger. This is kinda weird. But whateves, i'll keep going.

So the title maybe be a little misleading, I am not unhappy with my life. I am unhappy at being fat, wether you think I am or not. I weigh more today than I did when I was delivering my children. This is the "unhappy" part. I'm so over it.

I realized this this morning as I was at my trainer, and one of my besties Jax, working out and looking in the mirror. I thought to myself, who is that? Thats not the girl I was a few years ago. I did not like what I saw, so I am changing. As of today.

This is going to be a blog of me and my story. Getting fit, eating better, not drinking as much (WHAT) and being funny. I am doing this for me. To vent, to post what I eat, what I did to workout, which i hate btw, and to maybe motivate or inspire just one person.

As most of you who know me know I love to cook. It is my PASSION. I cook to show the people I love how much I love them. I am, however, going to try and cook better. I will post my recipes and let you know how i liked them.

I am not a writer and who knows how long I will blog. I also want you to know that this is not a diet. Diets are evil. I will drink, in moderation, but I will eat what I want. Just not till I can't breathe. lol.