Good Morning Tuesday

2nd week into being a full time employee again and things are going good. Eating WAY better during the day and trying to at night. We recently moved offices and there is NO tasty eateries around here, thats a GOOD thing. lol. Forced to bring lunch.

Not sure if mentioned it but getting into better shape is one of my goals this year. Yes to lose weight but also to be healthier. I'm going to start going to Jax circut class on Saturdays, which is a BLAST. A bunch of girlfriends and I are doing a 10K in late April and I am going to start training for that soon........ I really should have started last week and didn't UGHHHHH Next week is my week.......

One Awesome perk to our new office location is there is a small pilates studio down stairs. So Cyn, Donna and I are going to do a 30 min class twice a week at lunch. Which is AWESOME for me since finding time to work out is difficult. Our first class is today and I'm so excited.

Kisses

Its me again..........

Sooooooo I was thinking to myself....Why did I stop blogging? I couldn't remember. I brought my blog up and read every post. Then I looked at the dates and it all came rushing back to me. So many things have changed since June of 2010. Lost unemployment benefits, took a job i didn't want to but had to for necessity, got laid off from that job, lost unemployment benefits AGAIN, didn't know how I was going to pay for groceries some weeks, was under the most stress i have EVER been in, and got a new job with the best company and boss in the WHOLE world. That's a lot in that amount of time. I think that because I am happy again with a full time job and a LOT less stress, I decided to start blogging again........

Here's the broken record part of this blog.....I'm Still FAT and UNHAPPY........unhappy with my fat. All that stress that I went thru has made me heavier than EVER. I hate it. I look in the mirror and cringe. Why can't I be one of those girls that DOESN'T eat when she's stressed GEEZ. Not to mention I went brunette for cost purposes and really can't stand it. Not because my hairdresser sucks, She doesn't you should go see her, Jaclyn at Hush Hush Bang Bang, (shameless plug) because for the past million years i have been a cute blonde. hee hee. I really wanted to have some crazy motivation. I wanted to post a picture of me in a bikini on this blog and posted up in all rooms i walk into at home but i really don't want to scare anyone who reads.....(if you are out there) or the children. lol

SO how does the saying go.....New Year, New You? I'm sure that's a slogan for jenny craig or nutrisystem but whateves......No diets, Eating better, Exercise more, loving me for me, and maybe a diet pill or 5 to jumpstart the weight loss. don't judge. If you want to judge, please do not read this.

Last time I said i was going to blog for 30 days. I made it 22, not too shabby. Im also not going to bore you with what i ate. Hard to say how often i will blog or even what i may say. Some days it may be funny, some days it may not.

Till i write more.........J

Day twenty two

Breakfast: oatmeal with Cranberries and almonds. Am I a broken record or what? You would think I am getting sick of that breakfast but it is SOOOOOOOO good. It's like I am addicted to it.

Lunch was a mess. Out running around and I did what I SWORE I wouldn't. I ate fast food. boooooooooo me. mustard dog with cheese and a small fry. God i'm a mess.

great news!!!!! my sink/dishwasher is fixed. as I was sleeping last night it fixed itself. lol. My lovely husband fixed it. He new it would make me so happy. So the kitchen is clean and I am cooking tonight. Another new recipe from clean eating. Sweet and sour chicken, steamed broccolini and salad. I'll let you know how it goes.

Dinner was DELISH. I would totally make it again. YAY

I am so excited for the weekend, although its going to be filled with booze and good food. I am going to try to keep it to a min. We'll see how that goes. As you have read, and figured out, willpower is not my strong point. Anyone have any suggestions?

Day twenty one

Breakfast: oatmeal almonds and cranberries

snack, carrots and homemade ranch. used the packet and used low fat mayo and ff milk

lunch, tons of veggies, grilled chix breast, fat free feta, balsamic and evoo

big stick........get ur mind out of the gutter people.

Dinner was a debacle. went out AGAIN because the sink and dishwasher were still not fixed. I wanted a burger. Went to the lazy dog and my intention was to get a burger with no bun, which i did. But the blue cheese and bacon on that burger with no bun and the cajun fries were the death of me. I'd had a crazy day and this is what happens when i get super stress. It's my down fall. As i normally do, I felt horrible about what I ate and wanted to vomit. I did not....BTW but was in such a funk last night I came straight home and went to bed. it wasn't even 8:30. depression at it;s best.

I have said it before and I"ll say it again. I will not lie to my readers about what I have eaten. I am human, I have fallen off the wagon. tomorrow is another day.

Day twenty

Breakfast: Oatmeal with cranberries and almonds.

I can't use half of my sink in the kitchen and my dishwasher. BOOOOOOOOO

super in a funk today. insecure and frustrated. took a trip on the treadmill and sweated. 30 min, 230 calories burned and sweaty as all get out.

lunch was corner bakery, corner combo, tuna on harvest with a mixed green salad, iced tea.

just had a small bowl of my macaroni salad I didn't have yesterday. Am i falling off the food wagon???? HELP ME!!!! This is not easy. i will not eat out the rest of the week, for lunch that is.

Dinner is out tonight. Having not dishwasher = me not cooking a big meal. Went to macaroni grill and got the campellini pomodoro with chicken. salad and wine. it was good and I am glad I didn't have the lasagna. hee hee

thankful for another day.

I will cook tonight.

Day seventeen, eighteen and nineteen

Wow what a great weekend.

Had a bad few days with eating and it showed. Gained back a lb but I look at it as motivation. Back to the grind.

Short blog.

Day Sixteen

Surprisingly I can walk. lol

Breakfast: Oatmeal with cranberries and almonds

Today is the last day of preschool for viv. I'm not sure if i wanna cry or be so happy. She is growing up so fast. She is my baby so it's bittersweet for sure. I am very stoked I don't have to write another check for preschool. It's gonna save us 300 bucks a month.

Lunch today will be Baja (not baja fresh) with aunt b, aunt Kim and uncle bretto. they have the BEST food EVER. Blackened fish taco, white rice, pinto beans

Dinner was 1 slice of pizza, 5 boneless hot wings, beer and the laker game.

Today was not the best food day for me but I am thankful for another day. tomorrow will be better.